before i could fall asleep~something cross my head...

i guess i'm currently facing a self-crisis here~i'm lost!LOST!hell yeah~sad but true~

its been months since those hectic yet productive lifestyle gone~

i'm superrrrrrrrrr lazyyyyyy since then ,

trying to pull myself out of it, but failed many times.

still trying ~doing a little by little~

but HEY!!! WAKE UP KELLY!! TIME IS NOT GONNA WAIT FOR YOU!! START KICK SOME ASS AND RUNNNNN!!

i hav ideas i hav plan but simply it just didn't last and work out!

i'm so full of disappointment and frustration and eventually at times,

i dunno who am i , i seems lost with my career path and i'm not sure where am i heading now~

i'm growing older now and i'm disappointed at myself with the little archivement i got so far~

I WANT MORE AND I BELIEVE I CAN DO SOMETHING MORE!!GRRRRrrr

people says,when u grow older you become wiser~

and now here i am, growing older and maybe alil wiser,

it makes me even lazier to care about what's comes around,goes around.

sometimes i just prioritize my passion and puts everything behind,

certainly, it feels good and truely alive~

when the times come and step back and take lil look at things,

it seems that the short term happiness brought longer suffering in the years to come,

shud i refrain myself from keep on going ? then bump into life that's what's call REALITY?

i'm lost~

i'm back on blogging~

its been a while since October 2009, so coincidencely, now is october 2010~time seriously flies...

Icom studies ended like since July 2010~its the most amazing musical learning journey i ever had in my entire life~its all toughed and stressed~but that doesn't matter~i'm through it all with a smile~

missed those performing experiences there n those people who treated each other like a family~

it such a heartwarming and encouraging placet! n the lecturer there were really SPECIAL!

lolx

i like freddy teaching : though he is really harsh at times but i like it cuz its always makes me feeling sucks and be more hardworking and work my ass off !

Wee Lern & Gabriel: becoz of them my jazz piano playing improve lotsss! esp in improvisation!!^^

Frank : well...not many likes him and either me during 1st sem~but well my perception towards him change when he taught us PS(performance seminar)2. he's been really an encouraging and patience person throughout the semester teaching us.

Eric Li: an awesome jazz pianist (esp latin jazz)^^ always like his inspiring and motivating stories during the class( Ear training2). there's sometime my tears nearly fall as it meant so much...=')

misses the people there so much but well~unfortunately, my financial state doesn't allow me to continue further at the moment~life gotta goes on anyway~i'm still figuring out my way~my new plan and stuff~ lost my sense of direction since after icom~i'm so not used to my current lifestyle~ i love having a tight schedule and a hectic lifestyle~ i need to be pushhhh forwardddd and keep learning and discovering new stufff! sadly, i seems lost and passive right now~i'm stepping it out slowly~and walking my way out to a path that belongs to myself~

S.O.S!!!i need more motivation and encouragement!