current iceky is expired, in a process of renew.

i was depressed, in silence for awhile
tried running away and cudn't accept the fact,
both incident make the peak of hardship in my life ,
was not comfortable in revealing much, and worst,
i couldn't help myself and i dare not turn to anyone
for a period of time.

finally,when i took out my courage to face it ,
every suspects, probs and reason simply,
too crazy clear to understood and hell sad but true,
its too late to know all about....and is finale
the alternative option becomes too limited
in short, no choice

well, not too bad as to obtained more understanding
knowing your back ups',
as to serve any possible worst event could ever happen

lesson learnt: no matter wut comes up that unknown to u ,
make yourself well-knowledge towards it by all means.
do not make decission emotionally.
not giv in to anyone(included yr family/friend) interfere/ influence your decission, your freedom of right.
not sure, not know wut to do, get the right person and talk it out.
gather enough infor and back up your decission.

i was wondering, how many of u would agree on this?
when u look at something at its best , shud hav look at it worst as well

its like every human born and will die one day,
its a fact.u do not hav a choice
but live with it

whereby in life, u hav a choice ,
the power to think and to make a wise decission,
why must let the tendency to falls at the tricks of life?
instead hav a deeper though at things at its whole ?

when can imagine sumthing so great,
must oso not forgetting the worst side of it.
if u couldn't accept the worst side,
then don carry on.
that simple.

" do not blinded by the short term sweetness and
continue a wrong doing that risking/ damaging the future"

in life there are countless shutting door ,
to wut u want or against one's expectation.
but i believe is with hardship and sound mind...
one's will definately create an open door for yourself.
in short, its really not necessary to be such aggresive at things.
take your time, stop being emo/mental block, and hav a clearer state of mind.
why giv into the mess and confussion?
instead, hav your own space of though or get the right person to talk to....

another thing,
your are your fate controller of your life.
do not hav the tendancy to let fate misleading your life.
do your best, have no regrets.
failing or success doesn't matter.
sumhow, there's no perfection in life.
but through constant effort in learning, sharing, understanding,respects,patience...etc
be it family, relationship, career,.......etc
keep an open mind, do your own thinking
your mind and heart will contribute the best answer.
the rights and the wrongs
everyone deserve happiness in life,
kick start and archeive it
nothing is impossible.

i will die one day i know.
be it tonight, tmr, or someday in future,
accidentally or naturally.
to accept the fact, i had tried my best
to live the best out of me.
i only live once and i want it at it best.
but simply, to archieve it,
u gotta stay tough and walk through all the challenge in life
the learning process aint easy,
its always new and getting tougher,
i'm sure not many like it guess,
u just need to make it intresting for yourself
i like this phrase " welcome challenge with preparation(knowledge)"
i believe, that's the way
to stand through all trouble waters in life.

sometimes, i seriously wish i could turn back time
do things at its right way
not giv in to my weak point
not being disappointed of myself or the result
not wasting much time and constantly,
making all the stubborn careless mistake.
too sad but true, only the hard way,
makes human truely learn and appreciate,
what life is all about.

for all the ladies, i want to remind all of you,
control your emotional state and be strong.
think for others at the same time think of yourself too.
its not about selfish, its about you and your future.
to helps there's a limitation. not helping is not a sin.
dun feel sorry. u must remember,
nothing is reliable in this real world and
u are your own safe guard and security creator.
nvr be afraid and hav the courage to stand up for your right
stop dreaming and be realistic
there's no such thing like what the fairytale stories tells,
there will be everlasting love or happiness
if only by working it out constantly together,
be sound and open minded.
this secure u, your family, your children.

life with me been stuck for while
real hard, tough and f*** up.
its time for sum silence and space for sum thought.
hereby wanna expired myself,
i needed time to walk back on my past again ,
to hav a good look at all the mistake i had make,
picks up the lessons learnt and plan the future i want.
i will come back continue blogging
when i'm ready for a renewal of iceky life
back soon.

last but not least, thank you so so much
all my dear friend who never giv up on me,
giving me countless love,supports,concerned....etc
thanks for lending a hand in my growing process
its all always remembered and appreciated
till the day of my last breath
to repay u, i will make sure to take good care of myself,
^.^

lotsa misses and love.
-kelly-