sleepness night

cried hardly earlier on the way back home.
tot its totally not right to drive and cry
and i suppose after cry and talk surely can sleep well...
but....sigh

its already been a month long yet to hav good night sleep
tot mentally stress & exhausted sometimes gav a better sleep
i skip reading tonight for i was really tired and i know i needed good rest
but well.....not sure its the pillow problem or my mind problem...

is another sleepless night again tonight
start rolling on the bed since 2am till now which is 4am....
tired...really tired....
but my mind simply couldn't put my physical body to rest
seriously f*** up

a very mess and confusing mind
that cudn't find a good reason to rest
and guess its time to change a new pillow also...aiks.

moving out is on my mind again...
well...seriouslly wanted a change so much ,
being myself and live the way out of it
dun get me wrong,
not about running away from problems,
just needed a clearer state of mind
stay out of shit and proceed in life.

home sweet home is wonderful
but i've lost the security out of it since
i dunno who i am now,
am in fear, lost, stress.....
in short...depression


well....gtg try sleeping now...night everyone.